Summary

I struggled for years by chasing a false sense of love through pornography, especially when I couldn’t meet the high standards I set for myself. Even though I grew up in a loving Christian environment, I felt unworthy and let my self-rejection drive me into an addiction. I kept trying to convince myself that I was loved based on my performance, but deep down, I never truly felt the affection I craved. Then, during a heartfelt prayer session and through reading 1 Corinthians 13, the Holy Spirit revealed to me the incomparable love of God—a love that is patient, kind, and unconditional. That revelation shattered the cage of self-rejection I had built, and I learned that my true identity is defined not by my failures or achievements but by God’s perfect love. Today, I live with renewed self-worth and freedom, no longer enslaved by porn or the pressure to perform.

Time Chapters

 

  • 04:02 Encounter with Biblical Love
  • 04:35 Breakthrough Moment
  • 09:00 Living a Transformed Life

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“Every time when I wasn’t able to achieve a goal or standard that I set for myself, I would diss myself and beat myself up, telling myself I’m a failure and I’m unworthy. These thoughts can be very daunting because it seems no matter how hard I try, it’s never good enough and I would just end up failing. Then I would enter into a chronic procrastination mode in order to avoid all the pressure.

As a result, I would start to find alternative ways to make myself feel better and feel loved when my performance failed to deliver, which led to my second issue in life – porn.

In porn, I would be able to just dwell in the fantasy of being in love, without needing to perform. And scientifically, the sense of love is actually triggered by a hormone called oxytocin. And for men, oxytocin levels skyrocket particularly during orgasm, which explains why I kept going back to porn to make myself feel loved.

This all seems to be clear now but at that time during prayer session, it was actually very hard for me to draw the connection between the issues in my life and a sense of feeling unloved, because I was so convinced that my parents love me. What happened is that I had always been using my mind to convince my heart that I am loved, but deep in my heart, actually I didn’t feel that love.:”

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