Summary

I was born into a life of conflicting cultures and deep-seated abuse. From my earliest memories in the highlands of Netherlands New Guinea, I experienced sexual abuse that shattered my innocence. The pain continued through my boarding school years, where the abuse and even my own predatory behavior at a young age left me burdened with overwhelming shame. Over the years, I struggled with addiction, secrecy, and the heavy weight of internal trauma. Yet through God’s unwavering love and the conversion of those around me, I began pursuing authentic healing. I testify that only through Jesus’ grace can we be redeemed and restored.

Time Chapters
  • 03:40 Sexual Abuse Begins
  • 04:10 Predatory Behavior at Six
  • 04:44 Reflecting on Child Innocence
  • 05:00 Internalizing Shame
  • 17:00 Pursuing Authentic Healing
  • 21:00 Realizing Divine Love

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Paul tells his story of being sexually abused on the mission field from the age of 4 by the tribes his parents were trying to reach, and then by other kids at missionary boarding school. He discusses the consequent sexual addiction, porn use, and adultery that ensued.