|||and I hear a voice in my head that|||was completely indistinguishably a|||sentient being talking into my mind it|||was like someone put a straw in my ear|||into my brain and spoke through it it I|||it was a I I could tell the sentience of|||of what was talking to me and it was|||unlike any voice I heard before it was|||sharp I you would have thought I heard|||
it in my|||ears and I heard this this is what the|||devil said to me he said you ignored the|||signs and you let me into your house so|||your life is|||mine but you can have it back and you|||can live a long life but then when you|||do die I get to have your|||soul so I did not know Jesus at all|||growing up I didn't know anyone who knew|||
Jesus I remember like going to a few|||church services at Christmas growing up|||like as a kid but I didn't really know|||the gospel in depth I I knew the general|||idea just being raised in Canada but I|||never really had it like the profound|||spiritual impact explained to|||me um|||so I grew up kind of just a pretty|||normal kind of uneventful|||
life|||um but when I started getting in my|||early teenage years I had like a streak|||of rebellion and uh looking back I can|||see that so I was always afraid of death|||since I was a kid I I remember the first|||day I was 6 years old lying in bed when|||I|||realized that I was going to die and|||that I was going to die forever and I|||
that I had a panic attack when I was 6|||years old in my bed and I like can still|||vividly remember it and so that was|||always a really big thing in my|||life and um it caused a lot of anxiety|||and that I had growing up and so so when|||I started getting older I started to|||notice that the world wasn't really as|||great as I was taught and that I thought|||it was as a kid I didn't know at the|||
time but I was seeing sin I was seeing|||the Fallen nature I was seeing the curse|||over the land um but I didn't know that|||and so I was wondering and I was really|||rebellious and I was wondering like why|||it seems like people are not living like|||missing something there's no love|||there's no real Community there's|||there's so much like evil and sadness|||and the people who are like in charge|||
don't seem to be like doing good things|||for the general public and it just a lot|||of like|||questions but I didn't know where to|||turn I didn't know why I felt this|||gaping hole in me I didn't know that the|||only thing that could fill that void is|||Jesus so I kind of just latched on to|||whatever Society taught me to uh latch|||on to and in grade|||
10 that became marijuana and so I|||started smoking weed and I I I was|||immediately got like addicted every day|||and I started skipping school and was|||being really rebellious at home and|||things were not looking good and then|||after a few months I just completely|||dropped out of school and I left home I|||I just basically packed my bags and left|||and I ended up moving in with uh the guy|||
who was selling me my weed and I just|||lived with him for a while and then I|||had to move there and I went and lived|||with my grandmother and then was stayed|||a lot at another friend's place and then|||found my way back home by this time it's|||I was uh grade 11 but I wasn't I I|||didn't graduate past grade 10 I was just|||smoking weed I was chronically anxious|||like a social anxiety completely gripped|||
me I was very|||depressed and uh I ended up going to|||like a|||rehabilitation center and it was kind of|||like it was like a Bor school so so I|||was sent away way my parents told me|||that I you know if I wasn't going to go|||to this place then I was out I had to go|||on my own so I went and um I got sober|||and stuff I was there for like a year|||
and I got some school credits done and|||but it wasn't a Christian|||organization and so I came back I only|||had one year left to get my high school|||so I went to a new school was going to|||get my my uh high school diploma|||but within like a month or two I started|||smoking weed again because that I still|||wasn't|||fulfilled um and then it got worse I|||
started getting really into all of these|||different new age|||beliefs because I was started seeking to|||kind of find out about life after death|||is there life after death can I learn|||that now you know I wanted to answer|||those|||questions and so I fell into this of|||community that glorifies like|||psychedelic drug use and like you know|||
meditation and like it starts to get|||into Witchcraft and trying to like get|||like your Spirit guides and all that|||stuff and|||so I did mushrooms for the first time|||and is now my understanding that|||psychedelic drugs and really all drugs|||open up doors spiritually but these are|||not|||good doors this is demonic you are|||
allowing demonic entities to um enter|||your life when you are kind of doing|||these drugs so I want to tell you a bit|||about that experience I went through was|||about a 4-month period by the end of it|||I would I would label myself looking|||back as I was in a state of drug induced|||psychosis for sure and I was close to|||death I almost died a couple times and I|||really let some demonic things enter my|||
life eventually leading up to I actually|||witness somebody get possessed but we'll|||get to that but then Jesus sa my life|||but we'll also get to that so so I just|||want to tell you about the first|||experience I|||had I uh I took mushrooms and I was I|||was sitting down on like the side of a|||bed and I was on a uh I was in an|||apartment building on the 10th story and|||
there was the door to the um balcony|||right beside|||me and I I felt this horrible energy the|||whole time I it it I felt like just like|||everything was wrong I felt like there|||was a million little eyes watching me it|||just was a terrible experience and I had|||this overwhelming like not like a|||tangible voice but like kind of like an|||understanding coming into my head|||
basically and it kind of spoke to me and|||it said that because I'd done this drug|||I opened up some kind of like spiritual|||SL chemical|||Gateway and that I had a chance to reach|||immortality and if I jumped off of that|||10-story building and killed myself uh|||my body would die but my spirit would|||Ascend and I would Escape human death|||and I would live imort immortally in|||
spirit and that the I opened a window|||and it was shutting and I had minutes to|||decide and if I didn't kill myself by|||the end of I think it was 2 minutes the|||doors would be forever shut I would be|||trapped as a human I would live and I|||would die forever and you can see how|||that you know that was the devil and|||that was manipulating my greatest fear|||you know he he really tried to convince|||
me of that and so I was sitting up and I|||was like wrestling this decision and I|||decided I couldn't do it I said|||I I I I'm not going to kill myself I|||can't do it and the second I made that|||decision I heard a voice in my head and|||it was a whisper and it went like Jesus|||Christ Jesus Christ Jesus Christ Jesus|||Christ Jesus Christ Jesus Christ and|||like I didn't get saved then I didn't|||
really even attribute it to anything I|||guess the devil stole that seed but|||looking back I was pretty clear what|||that was um so yeah that was my my first|||drug trip I third time or|||something I was really um out of it and|||I I remember just having these voices in|||my head and they're just like speaking|||to me and and telling me all of these|||different lies and and just manipulating|||
me and um at one point I had like an|||open vision and I saw like it was like|||some kind of like|||insect human cross and it was a female|||and it was just like I just like saw it|||I didn't see it with my eyes but I like|||saw it in my head like she was just|||right in front of me and she was just|||screaming at me like wrathfully just|||screaming at me and I heard again a|||
voice that was taunting me that was|||saying okay you you didn't you didn't|||jump off the building that first time|||but you know what we'll give you one|||more chance and then and it was like if|||you walk down like leave your house walk|||out right now and we're going to lead|||you and you're going to die but you'll|||live forever and I did it I walked out|||in the middle of an October night it was|||
raining and in my t-shirt and Barefoot I|||left my door open and my cats could have|||got out but Greg's a God he he kept the|||cats in um and I go for this walk and I|||and I uh I end up outside like a movie|||theater because I live near a movie|||theater and I was basically like in the|||rain just like sitting|||there and I was like just like I was I|||was high I was very notd in my right|||
mind and I thought that okay someone was|||going to like come and like kill me or|||like a spaceship was going to get me or|||something like I was something was going|||to happen and I was waiting there for|||like half hour and then I remember I was|||sitting there and then I just heard this|||voice in my head and it said go home now|||and I was just like every Instinct in my|||body was to be obedient to his voice and|||
I just ran home and real and my cats|||were on the porch and I realized I left|||the door open but|||um yeah so|||that was that|||day and uh even in my sober life these|||like signs and wonders were happening|||these coincidences I call them syn|||synchronicities and it was like it felt|||like like the physical world was like|||
answering my thoughts it was like things|||would be like I would like say like I|||would really want a taco and then like a|||taco truck would go by and just like|||little coincidences but when you're|||opening yourself up to these dark|||Spirits when you're taking drugs and|||when it was happening every day like|||like a barrage it was it it really|||messed with me and my understanding of|||
reality was totally messed up but in all|||that happening because it was all|||negative it was never like a good good|||sign you know I would say things like do|||all humans go to hell and like I would|||think that and then like the TV in the|||background the character would be like|||yes yes they do like right after I said|||that and just like weird|||stuff and|||
um but the reality is I I realize that|||there are some forces that I can't see|||that have some kind of power over space|||and over time they don't exist in|||confined inside of time inside of space|||the same do the same way we do which|||open me up to realizing you know there|||is something more powerful than me|||probably many things|||and I kind of had an idea that there's|||
probably a bad guy and a good guy right|||I didn't know Jesus I didn't know the|||devil as Lucifer but I knew there was|||some kind of dark spiritual energy so|||there must be a good one and and it|||actually ended up opening me up to to|||that|||Revelation I had a uh I had a girl over|||to my house and my it was like my|||parents were gone somewhere far like|||
they were hours away and um it was|||like the middle of the|||night and she became|||possessed um I|||didn't know exactly that's what it was|||at the time but I knew something had|||taken over her so the first thing that|||happened was she she froze like she was|||just like a normal person and then all|||of a sudden like a computer when it|||
boots off like Frozen like her eyes|||weren't moving like she had literally|||been stuck in time and then she started|||just like twitching aggressively|||twitching and it felt I remember|||thinking like it looks like she's|||fighting something off like something|||was trying to take over and she's like|||it's like she's like starting to kind of|||twitch and like|||
convol and|||then all of a sudden like a second this|||Just Energy this horrible energy just|||came over the whole room and I just felt|||this sharp evil presence and I heard in|||my head you are in the presence of|||Satan and I realized that that girl was|||taken|||over I thought by the Devil Himself but|||you know could have just been a demon|||
whatever so because of so I I like I|||left I walked away and I went downstairs|||and I was kind of in my main room and I|||I didn't leave the house I was tempted|||to just run but because of everything|||that happened to me at that point I I|||thought I wasn't any more safe out there|||in the in the night I I would just I|||would just stay there and and I would I|||would see what|||
happened and|||um so about a minute later I I look|||upstairs cuz like you could see up my|||stairs into my room and I look up and|||she she was peeking out at me behind my|||door and um the doorway was covering|||half her face so only one eye was|||showing and she was just like looking at|||me not blinking with|||a look that I couldn't imitate and I|||
couldn't describe the way the eyes that|||she had um but you know it's not human|||it's not human and it looked like a|||horror movie like when I saw her|||possessed looking like looking in my|||soul looking through me I was like okay|||so this is where they get horror movies|||from based on true|||stories and|||um it was just not only the sight was|||
horrible but the the feeling the energy|||you|||feel and so she gets up and she starts|||limping towards the stairs and I'm|||talking like limping and her bangs were|||covering one eye the entire time she was|||pass that|||I never saw both of her eyes something|||was covering one eye the entire|||time um and she starts limping down my|||
stairs she didn't blink once and she|||didn't break eye contact with me once|||just kind of like following me with her|||head with her eyes and her eyes didn't|||move just her head moved her eyes stayed|||looking directly|||forward and it took her like at least 4|||minutes to get down my stairs she was|||limping so|||slowly but um I was just I was honestly|||
just|||waiting I said to myself in the moment I|||was like Well I this guess that this is|||how you go it had to be this way it|||couldn't have been a regular death you|||had to have had somebody become|||possessed and kill you inside your house|||but whatever so I was just like just|||kind of|||Frozen and so she ends up walking|||
probably about 4T away from me and she|||stops and she looks at me and I hear a|||voice in my head that was|||completely indistinguishably a sentient|||being talking into my mind it was like|||someone put a straw in my ear into my|||brain and spoke through it it I it was a|||I I could tell the sentience of of what|||was talking to me and it was unlike any|||voice I heard before it was sharp I you|||
would have thought I heard it in my|||ears and I heard this this is what the|||devil said to me he said you ignored the|||signs and you let me into your house so|||your life is|||mine but you can have it back and you|||can live a long life but then when you|||do die I get to have your soul I was|||pretty shaken up when I heard that and I|||thought|||
back give me 5 minutes to decide and I|||heard and again it was it was a male|||voice and it was like okay|||and then the second that happened she|||cuz she hadn't spoken a word physically|||she turned around and limped into my|||kitchen and like limped like turned the|||corner I couldn't see her anymore so I|||went back into my living|||room and I kind of had to decide um was|||
I going to make a deal with the devil|||and uh live my life but you see I didn't|||know again I didn't know Jesus I didn't|||know Lucifer but I knew that whatever|||had taken over her whatever was trying|||to make this deal with me is evil you|||you could feel the evil a mile away it's|||horrible it's brutal and there's nothing|||worse than being with that for eternity|||I am not going with that evil for|||
eternity and if I have to die today if I|||have to face my greatest fear if I have|||to realize if there's a God or not|||today then I'm then I have to do it|||because I I can't go with|||that and I also|||realized if there's a devil there has to|||be a god there has to be it's like my|||atheism my agnosticism was proved to me|||I just met the devil of course there's a|||
God and those|||two|||um|||realizations gave me the strength to|||make the decision so I uh so as I was|||thinking|||the girl peaked out at me again with one|||eye and I heard hurry up and I thought|||like I'm literally like I have to make a|||decision to die okay give me my five|||
minutes and|||so I decided I would go outside and I|||would take one last breath of fresh|||air|||and this is the part that uh if I didn't|||believe before there was no denying this|||was real after whated happened next all|||my doors were shut all my windows were|||closed and I'm on my porch and this girl|||is now limping around in my hallway|||
inside of the house and I took my last|||breath and then I cemented my decision|||and I|||whispered I make no deal with the|||devil and it would have been physically|||impossible for this girl to have heard|||me but the second after I said that|||she went from Stone Cold Frozen and|||Silent all night and I mean a|||millisecond after I sto talk said that|||
she started screaming and burst into the|||most unfathomable fit of Wrath I have|||ever seen an outerworld wrath and her|||voice had this raspy|||dark tone in it and she was just saying|||the f- word and screaming the f- word|||and and at that moment I know I swore|||like a trucker my whole life well you|||know growing up and I realized okay that|||word is from hell it is a demonic|||
word and she was just screaming no no|||and she looked at me through my window|||and she said go home home is that way go|||home and I knew like yeah|||there's|||like this is|||real and I I didn't know what would|||happen I thought that I was going to she|||pointed me down the street so I thought|||I was just going to walk and then like I|||
would die or something and then I would|||uh hopefully find out if there was a God|||or|||not um so I started walking and then she|||comes out and um she's now like loopy|||like she's like walking around like this|||and giggling and laughing and like going|||like this and she was just like and then|||she walks up to me and then back to|||anger this anger in her face and she|||
said I said go home and then back to|||this like loopiness and so I'm walking|||and then she's following behind|||me and then I'm like oh great that's|||what you want at 12 a.m. or whatever|||like but then she was like I have to go|||back and then like walked back into my|||house and so I just left I just walked|||and I walked for hours and I just I was|||cold and I was just saying I made no|||
deal with the devil I made no deal with|||the devil I made no deal with the devil|||cuz I was just kind of like freaking out|||and I saw that obviously when I said I|||make no deal with the devil there was|||power in that in the way that she|||reacted so I just kept saying it and uh|||eventually as I was|||walking|||I asked|||
Jesus to be my savior or no I accepted|||him as my Lord and Savior but I didn't|||actually do it from a legitimate heart|||of of of wanting Jesus I did it as like|||a formality because I like was told that|||that's what you're supposed to do so I I|||was like oh yes in Jesus before I die I|||accept you as my Lord and|||Savior so I I wasn't saved I I I don't|||think that night but what I did do is I|||
asked him to reveal himself I said will|||you reveal yourself|||God will you reveal yourself and I|||believe that that was the key it was|||just the|||simple true pure-hearted asking of God|||to reveal himself because the Bible says|||that if you seek with your whole heart|||you will find God and I I was seeking|||with my whole heart not from the|||
greatest point in life but I was looking|||for those|||answers and uh that was the night I I|||asked so the night continued I was|||walking it's probably been like 3|||hours and I was actually sitting on this|||person's random person's porch on their|||rocking chair because I was like I'm|||tired of walking if the devil's going to|||kill me tonight then he's got to come to|||
me and I was obviously not in a great|||state of mind so I'm just sitting on|||this person's rocking chair like may as|||well be comfortable don't nobody arrest|||me okay|||but um and then I I eventually I I felt|||this like click and I heard these birds|||tripping and I it was like a positive|||click and I felt like for the first time|||other than that time when I heard|||
Brennan go home that night when I was at|||the movie theater it was like a positive|||voice and it told me that I did invite|||the devil into my house I did ignore the|||signs that he gave me that that wasn't|||supposed to happen um but that didn't|||give him permission to kill me that just|||gave him theth authority to come into my|||house what he said about having my life|||was a trick and it was a test and I|||
passed the test and I could go|||home so I went home and this girl was|||now no longer possessed she had no idea|||where she was she had no idea what|||happened she took her a couple minutes|||to remember my name she was terrified in|||this stranger's house I I didn't know|||this girl very much uh she was in this|||stranger's house house essentially in|||the middle of the night with these two|||
cats and I walked in my house and uh|||there was like milk and eggs and|||crackers and cheese all over the floor|||like she had just grabbed food and|||thrown it all over the place and she|||while she was possessed after I left|||recorded a video on my phone that I|||deleted where she put the camera on my|||kitchen table and she went up this close|||to the camera and was looking in it and|||
was burning marshmallows singing them to|||a crisp in front of the camera looking|||to the camera this close to it and|||like do other possessed person|||things um but at this point I I thought|||okay I don't like is this person really|||back to normal or is this like the devil|||trying to like play innocent you know|||cuz like got I didn't know so I just|||kind of like try calmed her down and|||
then I like put her to bed and then I|||went downstairs and I|||um just kind of dozed off I tried to|||stay|||awake but I ended up dozing off and then|||I woke up at like 8:00 a.m. to her|||coming downstairs so yeah I walked her I|||walked her to the bus stop and uh I sent|||her on her way and school it was like a|||week after school ended I just graduated|||
so I um I didn't I think I saw her one|||more time I just kind of tried to ignore|||that night and move|||on nothing dramatic in my life changed|||although I I didn't do any more drugs|||after after that I was like okay like|||this|||is I I need to take be more cautious|||like|||obviously there's something going on|||
here and I just was like I need I need|||to be sober|||um but that night is the night I asked|||God to reveal himself and it took one|||month it took one month and so what|||happened was 1 month|||later it was July 31st|||2019 I wanted to write out essentially|||my testimony everything that had|||happened to me I wanted to write out so|||
I was typing it all out it was like 150|||pages and I was wherever writing and I|||wanted to mention Jesus Christ I wanted|||to mention think that story I told you|||guys|||earlier on my first drug trip when I|||heard Jesus Christ Jesus Christ but um I|||wanted to find his his Hebrew name|||Yeshua hamashiach cuz I thought if I'm|||going to mention him I want to address|||
him how he was probably addressed by the|||people that he was alive with so I|||Googled Yeshua hamashiach at about 11:00|||maybe 10 and um just how to spell it so|||I could type it out and the first that|||came up on Google was a song and I|||clicked the song and it was like this|||upbeat like folky song and a picture of|||Jesus came up and this the uh|||instruments were going and this voice|||
started singing|||yesu|||and when the picture of Jesus came on|||screen within a second I felt the|||presence of Jesus Christ descend on me|||and it was the most incredible|||experience I have ever experienced in in|||this life probably ever|||will I was sitting there normal and then|||about 2 seconds later I was just like|||
something was happening and I was like|||what's going on and like 2 seconds after|||that I was in awe and I knew more than I|||ever knew anything in my entire life|||that Jesus Christ was the Lord and the|||presence of Jesus Christ was more real|||than the skin on my bones there wasn't a|||doubt in my mind that he is God that he|||is the answer to every question I have|||ever been asking and that right now it|||
is him it is Jesus Christ in front of me|||and I felt like I was flying like my|||body was in|||this glow of|||Fire and I was started to cry in my|||first instinct when the presence of|||Jesus and the love of Jesus fell on me|||was to repent and I didn't even know|||that repentance was a crucial step for|||salvation but it was instinctual it came|||
out of me I said Jesus is that you but I|||knew it was and I felt this|||reassuring yes and then I said do you|||forgive me and he said|||yes and I I realized in that moment that|||the reason that I am alive the reason I|||exist is to be with God is to be his son|||and to be in a relationship with him|||that's the reason that I even have|||breath in my lungs in my entire life I|||
had been separated from God because of|||my sin and at that very moment for the|||first time not only now not only for the|||rest of my life but for eternity|||that barrier was broken and I was|||reunited with my father because of the|||sacrifice of Jesus|||Christ and I was born again in Fire and|||power my life was changed instantly|||never done a drug again never wanted|||
anything but Jesus after that moment I|||knew that he was my water he was my|||bread he was my purpose I wanted to feel|||him I wanted to serve him and live for|||him I want to be close to him as close|||to Jesus Christ as I can be and then|||when I'm released from this body to be|||with him forever he is the answer to|||every question he is my savior and my|||God and my father my best friend and|||
that is how I got born again my life was|||changed and immediately I I was just on|||fire I wanted to start preaching and I|||you know I still had a large|||sanctification process to go through I|||had to come down from this drug and de|||psychosis I was in I still had lies that|||I had to to learn were lies but I knew|||the Bible was the word of God and I|||started reading the Bible and I knew|||
that God I had faith that is something|||God gave me that night I he gave me just|||faith I just knew that he was taking|||care of me from that moment on and I|||knew he would lead me to a church a|||couple weeks later I run into a a 77y|||old lady in McDonald's and I just walk|||up to her and I ask her about the Lord|||and we start talking about it and she|||brings me to what church and then I go|||
to the church as young adults and I got|||introduced into a wonderful huge group|||of young Christian friends and I I found|||another church I went to and I started|||going there every week and then I met my|||wife there and my life just was devoted|||to Christ I started in Ministry I just|||was seeking the|||Lord and um you know I've never looked|||back I I was changed I I am a child of|||
God he gave me the holy spirit that|||night you know my cup was empty and he|||he filled me up that night and now I've|||got the living water in me and until the|||day I die the purpose of my life is|||going to be to serve Jesus Christ to to|||abide in him to be intimate with him as|||close as I can and to hopefully walk in|||the power of the Holy Spirit and on that|||day on that Judgment Day to have him|||
tell me you know Welcome to My Kingdom a|||good and faithful servant that's my life|||and that's that's uh anyone out there I|||would encourage you that's the reason|||for all of this that's the reason you're|||alive if you don't know God if you're|||depressed if you're on drugs it will|||never fill you that is the devil's|||corrupted false Vice the reason you|||exist is to live with God God created|||
you You're Made In His Image he wants to|||be with you he loves you so much more|||than you can imagine I will never|||experience a human being have or give a|||love as rich as the love of God that|||I've experienced that night and|||throughout my three your Christian walk|||and so that's my testimony that's how I|||was born again so brenon if you had|||anything to say to this generation what|||
would you tell|||them seek Jesus Christ he's the only way|||to Heaven There Are No false Spirit|||guides there are no all of these|||different gods and goddesses there is|||one Lord it is Jesus Christ part of the|||Triune God Holy Spirit Jesus Christ and|||the father they are one seek Him and|||turn from your sins your sins are|||blocking you from God you need to repent|||
of your sins and that means to accept|||that you're a sinner that takes humility|||and to say I recognize that I'm a sinner|||and that I need a savior and if you|||recognize that and you ask he will show|||you that he is that savior turn to God|||because the day will come when it's too|||late I promise you I've felt God I've|||seen God and I felt the devil and I|||assure you that hell is a is vicious and|||
hell is hungry and hell will swallow up|||every human being who does not accept|||Jesus Christ because we' have all earned|||our place in hell we have all sinned|||against a holy and just God but he died|||for you he was tortured to death for you|||so that you could have eternal life you|||could escape the Flames God wants your|||soul but so does the devil and there is|||a war and you have to choose because you|||
don't know which day will be your last|||so seek God pray to God talk to God find|||people in your life that will push you|||towards God and before it's too late|||turn to Jesus Christ his love his|||salvation is|||everything that there everything good|||that there ever could be is is found in|||Jesus Christ so that that is the message|||of my life thanks|||
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